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Tuesday, December 26, 2006,3:48 PM
tue
Its another rainy day. Jus another day to make me feel all so cosy and well slightly more emotional den usual? Spoke to becky last nite on e fone for about 1.5hrs. It feels really good to finally have her to relate to again after so long. The last time i actually spoke to her was on my bday itself, 6th dec. When we would normally communicate at least thrice a week? Well yeah i do miss her and i miss talking to her. She told me wats been up to in her life recently as well and im glad that she felt beta after tellin me abt it all. Anyways babe, it ain't ya fault so dun blame urself alrite. I love u too much as a fren to actually blame and hate u for anything. Unless u steal my love one away frm me. HAHA! But i sincerely doubt so, we r both on different path.Oh interestin news. Well. I saw HER on sat. And haha, we were jus talkin about her earlier of the day and i said "Sekali we really c her ah.". True enough, we did saw her and haha well lets jus say that it wld be much beta if she didn stare at us for THAT long. She shldn have looked and stared at us till we r out of her sight. Coz watever u did jus made her feel even more frustrated and furious den she already is. I believe. Its like a forbidden fruit she knows she can neva eva have. Oh my, wat a lusting effect a person can actually possess huh. :D
,12:47 AM
mon
A cold cold Christmas eve and day. Spent indoors cuddling wit the love one with the company of food and dvds. A truly wonderful and lovely feelin indeed. I love the feel of ur arms around me at times like dis. There's something about rainy weather. Not only it makes one feels so lazy it makes one feels all cosy and snuggly as well. Well, fall in love and ya know wat i meant. Haha.
A lot like love and Lovewrecked. Movies that makes u feel oh so mushy and all u can tink of is huggin ya love one real close and tight and jus smooch the daylight out of him/her. That's my current thought/feeling.
Sometimes i sincerely hate my star sign. Why am i born such? I gotta find time to post this qns out to my parents. Nonetheless i'd like to thank them for bringin me into dis world. Thou i ain't perfect, im glad ive u in my life regardless of how cruel i can be to ya at times. I'm sorry. Old habits ain't easy to get rid of. But im tryin. Im tryin real hard. It might be the third time now but at least dis time around i did not go all the way out. If ya know wat i mean. Lets jus say, its hard to love me. Sincerely it is. I was known for a heartbreaker. Ive broken countless of hearts now. Recently one more added to the list. So yeah.
I jus miss u so much. You have been gone for so long that i literally forgot how it feels like to have ur arms ard me no more. I no longer rmb how u smell when u perspire. I no longer rmb how u smell and look early in the mornin. I no longer rmb how serious u look when u hafta concentrate on serious impt stuff. I no longer rmb how ur laughter sound like wen ur havin kids ard u. I no longer rmb how annoyed i felt when u insisted on entering toy shops whenever we r out window shopping. I no longer rmb the look on ur face whenever i told u that i had fallen ill. I no longer rmb how it feels like when u lay ur lips on mine. I no longer rmb anything no more.
I want all these memories back and i want u back in my life. I dun think i am able to go thru another day or another period just clingin onto someone else and wantin to be with that someone else jus coz i miss u so much and i needa feel loved again. I miss the beginnin us. Where has it all gone to? Someone pls tell me.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006,12:43 AM
wed
Ok. Im feelin really really touched. And guilty. Actually im feelin a mixture of emotions. I hate it.
Im jus. Totally speechless. It is at times like dis that actually opened up my eyes once again. I get it now why am i the envy of my cousins and frens. Haha. Not that im a show off but yeah i do feel loved and pampered and well im jus the luckiest girl in the entire universe arent i? But hey dun get me wrong now, it ain't all about the money. I ain't a materalistic person. Or mayb i'm but not THAT materalistic. Sure there are expectations to be met wen it comes to "The One", but im very sure now that ur The One? Haha! Well we shall see. Its stil too early to tell :D
PS: Green rocks. HAHA!! To that bitch, bring it on. We shall c who bares the most treasured and beautiful possessions.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006,3:58 PM
wed
Life is jus too unpredictable at times. U neva know wat God has in mind for u when u wake up the next morning. Sure, life can be full of surprises and happiness but it has it's downfalls as well. And believe me when i say, enjoy ur everyday to the fullest. U cld have it all one day and lose it all the very next day. Simply put, life's fcuked. Regardless of how u look at it.
Saturday, December 02, 2006,2:35 PM
sat
Its another sunny yet cloudy day. You said that im lookin really tanned now. Or did u used the word "dark" instead? Haha. Anyways im content wit the way my skin color looks now. So i'ma still go ahead with the original plan i told ya abt nex week. Otherwise somebody wld b disappointed and i dun wan him to be. Beach girl & Charcoal boy. What a combination.
,12:17 AM
fri
I LOVE THE SUN!!! Did i eva mention that?
And i love hols too. Hehe.