Laine's Heart

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006,12:47 AM

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A cold cold Christmas eve and day. Spent indoors cuddling wit the love one with the company of food and dvds. A truly wonderful and lovely feelin indeed. I love the feel of ur arms around me at times like dis. There's something about rainy weather. Not only it makes one feels so lazy it makes one feels all cosy and snuggly as well. Well, fall in love and ya know wat i meant. Haha.

A lot like love and Lovewrecked. Movies that makes u feel oh so mushy and all u can tink of is huggin ya love one real close and tight and jus smooch the daylight out of him/her. That's my current thought/feeling.

Sometimes i sincerely hate my star sign. Why am i born such? I gotta find time to post this qns out to my parents. Nonetheless i'd like to thank them for bringin me into dis world. Thou i ain't perfect, im glad ive u in my life regardless of how cruel i can be to ya at times. I'm sorry. Old habits ain't easy to get rid of. But im tryin. Im tryin real hard. It might be the third time now but at least dis time around i did not go all the way out. If ya know wat i mean. Lets jus say, its hard to love me. Sincerely it is. I was known for a heartbreaker. Ive broken countless of hearts now. Recently one more added to the list. So yeah.

I jus miss u so much. You have been gone for so long that i literally forgot how it feels like to have ur arms ard me no more. I no longer rmb how u smell when u perspire. I no longer rmb how u smell and look early in the mornin. I no longer rmb how serious u look when u hafta concentrate on serious impt stuff. I no longer rmb how ur laughter sound like wen ur havin kids ard u. I no longer rmb how annoyed i felt when u insisted on entering toy shops whenever we r out window shopping. I no longer rmb the look on ur face whenever i told u that i had fallen ill. I no longer rmb how it feels like when u lay ur lips on mine. I no longer rmb anything no more.

I want all these memories back and i want u back in my life. I dun think i am able to go thru another day or another period just clingin onto someone else and wantin to be with that someone else jus coz i miss u so much and i needa feel loved again. I miss the beginnin us. Where has it all gone to? Someone pls tell me.