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Sunday, February 25, 2007,11:55 PM
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Its a rainy day. I love it when the weather's such. All rainy and cosy. Jus an ideal day to cuddle with ur loved one. Where's mine? Secretly stashed away in my cupboard. Haha.
I am suppose to be going over to my cousin's place this evening for house warming. Dinner included of coz. But i chose not to. I am too lazy for that and i'd rather be in the comforts of my sheets. I'd much prefer to spend the time just doing things i enjoy since i've been missing out much of that recently. I know i am weird but sometimes i love it when i am able to do nothing but just sit by my desk or lay on my bed surfing the net or blog hop. I enjoy reading interesting blogs. Even if i dunno that person.
Couple of days back, Wye smsed me. Just to deliver a piece of news to me. "Damn. U shld have joined me las nite. I kinda kissed "D"." She fcukin arsehole. How dare she kissed D knowing that i am interested in D and to think she's my buddy! I am still as pissed off as im now as compared to that fateful day when she smsed me. For that, i ain't gonna forgive her. I am still dying to know D. Even thou, the desire is not that strong anymore compared to when i first got to know about D but. i. still. wanna. know. D. I dun mind being just frens. I just gotta learn to have a little more self control thats all.
Jessie is upset due to certain reasons which i shall not state. I personally dun think its wise that i pen it down. Babe if ur sad, im sad and if im sad, Cara's sad. So if ur sad, all the 3 of us will be. So pls dun be sad anymore. Cheer up for our sake yeah? The next time we meet, i will give u a big hug to make u feel beta. That is if it does :D
I like my current job. I enjoy it pretty much in fact. Thou the pay's peanuts but oh well, at least it still is a source of income for me rather then i plain live off my parent's pockets. Colleagues are alrite except for one black sheep. I can't show that i hate him or disrespects him or anything like that too coz afterall he is the one thats in charge of the CA's weekly schedules. I wish i am able to get more shifts thou. I am in need of cash. Can i have a sugar daddy pls?
One thing i hate and a habit i've to get rid of at work. That is to be able to stop eating and resist the temptation to wanna chew on food even when i am not hungry. Working in an F&B environment has always been a bad idea to me. I was working in a bubble tea dessert shop the other time and i kinda gained some weight. Frens claimed that my face got chubby after a month there even thou i kept up with my weekly fitness routine. Now that i dun even have the time to exercise, i really do not wish to imagine how i might look like after a period of time. So i will have to say NO to the continuous intake of food while i am my 5hrs or 8hrs shift. Bye bye to my ramen, chicken bao, bananas, the works, green tea, french fries, prawn rolls, sotong balls, string rolls, samosas, black pepper wings, and the list goes on.
It's been a while since we last communicate. Surprisingly enough i am quite alrite about it as compared to months back. I am now fully able to control and substain myself from sms-ing u for absolutely no reason at all or callin u just so to hear ur voice or to tell u i miss u. It was certainly nice to have u calling me and smsing me all the time back den and hearin how much u miss me and wanna be wit me. But things changed over time and it still is changin i believe. I think it is much better now of a situation for us as compared to the past few months even thou u were a great company. It was really disappointing when i finally got to know the real and true you. U weren't exactly the kind of person u seemed to be. Well, i guess that was kinda expected since we never really knew each other before we jumped straight into this whole drama. I am glad that we r finally out of it now. I think u and i both are relieved that we ended up as just friends eventually.
I miss u and i love ur company lately. I miss mockin u by sayin how much u stink coz u haven hit the showers when the clock reads 931pm. I miss the way ur hands brushes against my waist once in awhile while walkin down the streets of orchard road. I miss the way u held my hand and softly plant kisses on it. I miss the way u hold and hug me when some guys tries to be funny and cheeky wit me esp u-know-who. I miss those sheepish eyes u gave me when ya in need of some pamperin and TLC. I miss the sense of jealousy u have and gave me when i say so and so is/are hot/sexy, esp D. I miss tellin u that at the end of the day, ur the one for me.
I think i beta stop now before i start to feel all emo again.
I'm complicated and simple.